Hopes Dashed: Jessica Lloyd

I didn’t really have the energy to write tonight but the news was so shocking that I had to write something. Some of you may have heard about the disappearance of Jessica Lloyd several weeks ago from her home in Tweed near Belleville, Ontario. For those of you who haven’t, you’ll see her photo under “In Memory of:” in my sidebar and you can click the link to the original story. She was a 27 year old woman who vanished suddenly on January 28. Extensive searches of the area over the past few weeks were slow to turn up anything.

Today, however, her body was discovered on a country road near Tweed. The police had already begun to link her disappearance to that of another woman in November (who was also found murdered) and to some previous home invasions and sexual assaults of women in the area.

Now here’s the shocker. As reported here, the man charged with the murders of the disappeared women, and with the home invasions and assaults of the others, was none other than the top commander at Canadian Forces Base Trenton, Col. Russell Williams.

As wing commander at CFB Trenton, Williams oversaw operations at the air force base, which according to the Department of National Defence is “the heart of Canada’s air mobility forces.”

Well, isn’t that nice? Bastard. Not such a “shining bright star” now are you? Have fun in prison for the rest of your life.

Rest in Peace, Jessica.


21 thoughts on “Hopes Dashed: Jessica Lloyd

    1. It is, Omar. I agree completely. Every time someone goes missing, I keep hoping it will end with them found…alive. But it never seems to work out that way. I just felt deflated last night when I heard the news, not only because of her death, but because of the stature of the man who caused it. These are people we are supposed to trust with our national, and in the case of the RCMP officer in Constable Czapnik’s murder, personal safety and these two murderers have shaken that trust REALLY, REALLY hard.


  1. You see 😦 stories like this upset my inner balance and stretch my tolerance well beyond its limit. I cannot think of the murderer as a fellow human being anymore. Had a wild animal killed these victims it would’ve been hunted down and… terminated. No remorse.
    Same principle applies here. Putting him in jail is a waste of space, resources and breathable air. His body better serves the greater good as fertilizer somewhere near the country road where the body of Jessica was found.


    1. Emotionally, Abufares, I understand your feelings exactly. If this girl had been my daughter I’d want him dead. But it doesn’t bring her back, does it? And that’s the truly sad part. Nothing will.


    1. Well, Kinzi, having him behind bars…which is where he is now…also prevents him from doing any further killings. I don’t think he’ll ever be released if found guilty…but god help him if he is…


  2. He lived not 30 kms. away from us and was bent on putting Tweed on the map. Our small comfort country was shaken and our security was taken away. When you live in these smaller areas of the world you take for granted the safety net created by neighbours and your defenses are laid to rest because this would never happen here and by a trusted source of authority? most would laugh this off as rubbish. Then reality smacks you back to the world we live in. Our small community couldn’t save her. May she rest in peace and may justice be served.
    Thank you for putting it out there Isobel. It reflects what everybody feels when a tragedy such as this happens. You feel helpless.


    1. Heather, thank you for your thoughtful comment. It is truly unnerving to say the least. Apparently this lovely man had also taken up residence in Ottawa, which, incidentally was where he was apprehended. I cringed when I heard that, and had the same feeling I did when I learned, years ago, that Paul Bernardo had been brought to the Ottawa Psychiatric Hospital. Creeped out, really. I don’t want to go as far as to say you really can’t trust anyone no matter where you are, but damn, you have to be vigilant about being careful.


  3. This is truly shocking. Of course we have to wait for the trial before judgement. But if the individual turns out to be not only a rapist and murderer; but a senior officer and public figure to boot? What is there to say in such a case apart from ‘pass the noose’? I’m not sure about capital punishment myself in all murder cases. But this strikes me as a casus beli in this instance. Oh added you to my blog roll under ‘eco Socialists etc’ hope you don’t mind.


    1. You are absolutely correct, Paul. We do have to wait until he has been convicted to know for sure…but I’m guessing, given his stature, that they had to have pretty solid evidence against him to haul him in. You know, I’m thinking given the thoughts on this post’s comments, and the ones on Constable Czapnik, it might be interesting to have a debate…or shall I say discussion, on capital punishment. It is very tempting when the evidence is so conclusive to say “string ‘im up!” but you can’t really have a justice system that picks and chooses willy nilly who dies and who doesn’t. I can think of several cases here in Canada where it seemed open and shut only to be found years later that the accused killers were actually innocent.

      Anyway…thank you for adding me to your “eco socialist etc.”gang. I shall add you to my list too although mine is not categorized…:)


  4. Another sad ending. The right sidebar of your blog, Isobel, is become quite depressing :-(.

    I’m not sure I agree with your earlier commenters regarding capital punishment. Actually, I’m pretty sure that I don’t. There is the practical consideration that he may end up wrongfully convicted. I draw Abufares’s and Kinzi’s and Paul’s (nice to see you again Paul. I don’t think we ever finished our earlier conversation about remembering veterans. :-)) attention to this ==> http://www.aidwyc.org/cases/. We are fundamentally fallible — all of us. And that includes the institutions we establish to mete out justice. Killing someone is irreversible. You can’t fix that mistake. Wrapping it up in the trappings and rituals of court and procedure and so called “due process” guarantees nothing.

    Then there is the absolute moral hypocrisy of killing a killer. Kinzi, as a Christian, how do you arrogate to yourself the role of judge? Isn’t it God’s role to pass judgement? Isn’t it your role to forgive? It seems to me like you are camouflaging your desire for revenge with your comment that we save other lives by killing him. He is in jail. Who else is he going to kill?

    Abufares, as a Secular Humanist, don’t you see the inconsistency of deciding the fate of another human based on your “inner balance”? It seems quite arbitrary and it opens you up to the accusation by theists that your morals as an atheist are not absolute. Or worse yet, that you mete out justice based on what feels satisfying, or you base it on a desire for retribution. There is a reason why the victims of crimes don’t sit on the juries deciding the fate of the people they accuse.

    Paul, sometimes the death penalty is warranted, and sometimes it isn’t? Based on what? One of the biggest complaints in the US about the death penalty is that it is unfairly and inconsistently applied. The poor, the uneducated, and even the mentally challenged are put to death in numbers disproportionate to their numbers in society. BTW they’re mostly black. Again, I repeat, we are all fallible and we ALL have our biases. In the US it is racism. But for other places there will be other sources of bias leading to killing one offender and not the other, unfairly.

    We live in an imperfect world, and there are evil people. Or at least people who do evil at times in their lives. And clearly, in order to preserve the peace in society, those people cannot be allowed to circulate among us. But you can’t tell me that killing someone like Robert Stroud (http://www.alcatrazhistory.com/stroud.htm) would have served society much better than allowing him to make amends in some way. And he became a world famous ornithologist from inside Alcatraz.

    Again, we live in an imperfect world, but it is less imperfect than it was 500 years ago when worldwide life expectancy was 40 years and people believed in ghosts and demons and the “evil eye”. I believe there is a moral zeitgeist that moves forward. Slavery, was acceptable in most of the world 200 years ago. Now it is unacceptable (yet still still practiced, I admit). Women have made progress in terms of equality. They are no longer “property” and hey, that can even VOTE in more enlightened parts of the world! People don’t go to debtor’s prison when they fall on hard times. Surely we can relegate this ritualized killing to the past like these other barbarous practices.

    Killing this man will not bring back those he killed. It will simply bloody our hands, and stunt our moral development as a society.

    Jessica Lloyd, rest in peace.



    1. You’re right, Brigand. It is sad that my “In Memory of:” section is filling up so quickly. I may actually need to move it to it’s own page as I could never remove it.

      I agree with your points on capital punishment. When considered logically, it is something I would never want our judicial system to use ever again. Emotionally, however, I understand people’s call for retribution even though I could never condone taking the life of another human – no matter how despicable they are (which is easy for me to say when the victim is not part of my family – I could not predict my feelings if they were). In my mind, society has been slow to figure out that it is better to prevent murder, and other crimes, by fixing problems before they arise instead of punishing afterward. By eradicating social injustices, and weeding out aggressive behaviours, we might begin to move in the right direction. But then, that would take a radical change in mindset.


  5. Thank you Brigand

    Of course there might be inconsistency in my outlook on life. Being a secular humanist doesn’t make me perfect.

    Capital punishment is one of those thorny topics which people with similar leanings might disagree on.

    Our host wrote: “If this girl had been my daughter I’d want him dead. ” and this pretty much sums up my stand on the matter and makes me forget about my “purist ideals (if I had them in the first place).

    If this man is proven guilty beyond the shadow of a doubt and if I’m asked for my opinion I will not hesitate at all. He deserves to die. I wish I didn’t have to make such choices but it’s a cruel world we live in.

    I hope one day we evolve enough and Murder before Capital Punishment becomes a thing of the past. Until then, I won’t lose any sleep over the execution of a rapist who kills women and throws them on the side of the road.

    You see this is not an issue where one can convince, or should seek to convince, the other. We might be on the same side of the sociopolitical spectrum but we don’t have to agree on everything. And this is not bad at all 🙂


  6. I am pathologically and morally against capital punishment.

    Killing the killer. It’s too easy for them. They suffer far worse in prison.

    I’m moral enough to say I will not stoop to his level and kill him and vindictive enough to know that – because … or perhaps especially because of his stature and place in society – once in jail his life will be a hopefully long and painful one.

    I close my eyes, imagine the worst possible hard ass criminal and imagine him saying “Bend over Bitch”. Yep …. THAT is justice. Yes vengeance is a dish best served and eaten cold.


    1. Fantasia, this is my thought too. Prison is not an easy existence…especially in maximum security like Kingston which is where I expect Mr. Williams will be going. (if he is convicted which, since he showed the police where the body of Jessica was, is highly likely). Thanks for your comment.


  7. To the family of Jessica, Sorry For your loss. My Family & I went through a similar loss. My Little sister Robyn Field of Berea Ohio U.S.A. was murdered in 1986. Her Killer was arrested about 8 days after Robyn was found..If there is anything I can do to help you now or in the future, Please don’t hesitate to ask. Rest-in-Peace Jessica
    Richard Schultz
    Robyn Star Field Foundation Inc


    1. Rick, I’m so sorry to hear about your sister. This kind of loss is beyond tragic. Thank you so much for introducing yourself here. If I can find a way to pass on your information to the Lloyd family, I certainly will.


  8. I am grateful for a site like this to vent. I knew Jessica when she was about 12 and I drive pass her home to and from work every day. Not a day passes that I don’t wish she was still with us. That the accused’s wife is concerned about her financial future is disturbing in that this is paramount to her – can’t imagine being in her position however i hope I would be more concerned with the victims and their families. No justice can bring Jessica back and I am truly truly sorry for her family.


    1. Hi Sue. I’m glad you vented here and I understand your frustration. It is disturbing the way the way some people react to such a tragedy – seemingly with little concern for the victims. Although you might say his wife was also a victim. His actions certainly affected so many lives – but obviously none as horribly as Jessica’s family and friends.

      You’re right that nothing can bring Jessica back, but it does provide some satisfaction knowing that her killer will not go unpunished.

      Thank you so much for commented. All the best to you.


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