Big Life Change

You know how you think about wanting something for so long that when you finally get it, initially you’re happy, but then you start to panic because of all the things finally getting it means? Well, that’s where I am right now. If you have no idea what I’m talking about, in my case, the something is a job. Yes, after a concerted effort for the past 4 months, I’ve got myself a full-time, permanent job. I’ll get into the details of the job once I start it in a few weeks but, for now, I’m trying to take my life as I know it now and rearrange it around 8 1/2 hours of being somewhere else.

Don’t get me wrong. I’m not complaining. I’m very excited about the job. I just have not worked out of the house full-time since my son was born 12 years ago. As much as I like to get out and do stuff, you get used to a certain way of life and I pretty much had my own schedule for 7 1/2 hours a day. Even when I ran my Daycare I had certain time requirements but I was still at home and there was a lot of flexibility. When your routine suddenly completely changes, no matter how much you want that change, it can take some serious adjustment. Now, I do tend to worry…a lot…about everything. So I may be blowing this WAY out of proportion. I won’t really know how much things will change until I’m actually working.

One thing I’m concerned about are my writing goals. I fully expect to be absolutely exhausted in the evenings during the first few weeks of work. I hope that I can stay up to write but I’m not counting on it. Also, more time in the evening will have to be devoted to preparing meals for the next day since I can’t just come home at 5:30 and whip something up out of nothing. I guess the key will be to keep the goals in my mind and to play everything by ear. At some point it will all click into place. The famous “they” always say that if you really want to do something you’ll make time for it. I suppose “they” are right.

Yes, I know, many people coordinate their lives around a work day every day of their lives and quite successfully. I’m not saying I can’t do it, I’m just saying that my mind is whirring with all the planning and coordination that goes with making a big life change. It will be a good challenge, and I’m certainly up for it. I think, in the end, it will bring with it much satisfaction and gratification. After all, life needs to be about adventure or we get stuck in a rut.

to-do-list-woman-flickrBut still…do I have enough dress socks to last me a week? Do I have a lunch bag? I don’t know…I gotta take stock! Lists, lists and more lists. I will be the crazy list lady for the next few weeks! Watch out!

Until next time…go out and grab what you want and enjoy it. “They” say it’s okay. 🙂

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10 thoughts on “Big Life Change

    1. Thanks, Sharon. It’s a business not far from here. Great team – very friendly. I’m looking forward to it. Just waiting for all the paperwork before I give out all the deets. 🙂

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  1. Some days you will be too exhausted to write. I try to do a little at lunch and a little in the morning before work. I find it challenging to write with a full time job, but also easier in some ways. Because you’ll have less time, you may find yourself more focused when you do get time to write. Also, being around other people and having something else that preoccupies your conscious mind lets your subconscious figure out those story problems you’ve created for yourself. Keep a small notebook or email yourself often as you may get suddenly struck with story ideas. If you only have five minutes to write here and there, you might be surprised how that five minutes adds up and boosts your word count. It’ll be hectic at first, so don’t be too hard on yourself 😉

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    1. Thanks, Raeanne. Yes, I agree it will be hectic. I’ve seen how your days go from your posts and I expect mine will be similar. But you’re getting writing done so it gives me hope. 🙂 I appreciate your suggestions!

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  2. Good luck in your new adventure! I am sure you will be able to manage, even if it means compromising your house duties a little bit. Just remember that you do not need to be “perfect”, imperfect is fine, is normal! I am also in the midst of big changes in my life. After 28 years of living in the same town and Island, we are planning to move to New Mexico, USA. Looking for houses, etc… Part of the decision to move is to jump start my Fine Art career, which really freaks me out! At night when I lay down to sleep the “What ifs” start creeping out. What if I am no good, what if I never sell anything, what if the galleries do not like my work… But then I think it is now or never! At 51, I can not wait any longer, or I will certainly NOT make it!

    As the cliche says: Life is short! This will be a great experience for you, and whatever happens, good or bad, is not written on the wall that you have to stick with it. You can do this, and do it your way. Forget about what “they” say!

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    1. That is a big change for you, Hebe, but I know you’ll be a star. Your work is phenomenal and you’ll knock their socks off. Good for you for grabbing the bull by the horns. It’s really the only way to make it.

      I never worry too much about what “they” say. I think, however, it is a good thing to remember when organising one’s life…if something is important, you’ll make time for it. Luckily, I’m not striving for perfect. I’m old enough to know that’s not achievable but I will aim for good organisation so that I can achieve a lot of what is important.

      I’ll take it one day at a time. I know it will work itself out. 🙂 Thanks for dropping by and for the vote of confidence.

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  3. You’ll be fine, but don’t let “they” make you feel bad if something doesn’t go how “they” say it should go. Before my visit to Philippines, I was very anxious but everybody around me kept telling me to calm down. As if it was easy! I named all those people opinionlogists (opinólogos in Spanish), as I felt they were talking without knowing my real fear about the hugeness of my trip.
    Just relax and enjoy the moment you are living. In a blink of an eye, you’ll be celebrating the first anniversary with your coworkers.

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  4. Congratulations Isobel! Wherever, whatever, whoever they are (and I’m talking about your prospective employer here) they still don’t know what a jewel they’ve just won. Lucky them!!! And good luck 🙂

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